the hollow wombs of the train’s box cars beat a slow consistent bass timpani reverb
across the suburb dark
that night i found out
as i laid in the warm fall mesh screen window
aware truth was to be the dream blocker that night
that night i learned about the leaving of the locomotive pull
of empty box cars leaving the suburb town
leaving me to what I thought it was
the slow clink clank of industrial wallop
waves of the train on tracks was ominous
but pure
consistent
grander than my knowledge and understanding
magic was the cadence and the ability to fall into my bed as I lay there alone
reverted to the lost boy who just
found out about the perversions of men
Objects of Devotion
stay clean brush teeth drive to the gym
exercise go for miles get up on microphones
disseminate politics relieve other’s suffering
make money cook run wonder sigh
see stars write feed the dog dress nice cool
focus on music light candles burn incense
edit video paint perform kill boredom
kill depression kill thoughts of self kill lust
kill porn maintain wonder build roads
build headphone footsteps drive with airfreshners
keep clean cars no pout no sigh no cry
no hinder reflect keep sadness at bay chant
meditate read fight thought
think through everything destroy self and say goodbye
murder it and be reborn look in a bathroom mirror
brush teeth use exfoliators on face eat oatmeal
don’t expect give a vast meadow to wander
never possess never put on a pedestal collect flowers
search for exotic chocolates spray paint dance
take photos inspire us keep nails trimmed
keep sheets cleaned think in black and white films
be aware of ancestors act the fool dance
run down the sidewalk hold hands look up at trees
inspect ants read dr. seuss nuzzle cuddle
count hands and fingers analyze the color of everything
laugh at cars go by be amazed by planes
look for dragons in rivers
orchestrate lush environments into the picture pray
protest stay away from tv
let the internet reflect your mind
put a piece of hope in every instance
and always
pet the dog
speak when spoken to
and give everything its space
Running Series – apotheosis
apotheosis
a committed man whose name i can’t recall
kicked off the the 3rd annual bay to beacon ½ marathon
the sun had risen and 50 deliberate flesh-blood-breath bodies
stood on dnr grade gravel
in the middle of the mile long road into negwagon state park
the committed man at the daybreak of his middle age
talked about safety, about sponsors
his heart conveyed the land, the roads
commitment to a michigan thumb he nurtures in his visions and body movement
he thanked volunteers
then played jimi hendrix’s rendition of the star spangled banner
from the portable usb speaker and mc karaoke microphone
a small sentimental roadside gift shop wooden crossbow shot a firecracker into the forest
startled
we all fumbled for our garmins
to set into motion our neurotic metrics
and jim and i were off
jim who slowed down to talk with me
be with me
share with me
presence and time
both of us on the ½ century foot
one piriformis
another plantar fasciitis
we shared stumbling with a rural michigan prosecuting attorney who told us about gout
and the running salvation that prevented a divorce
his entry way into conversation was big gretch, the committed governor of our state.
we talked about her run. wondering
the orange sun was positive
jim and i found respite at the st gabriel church whose cross stood humbly in front of lake huron
at the end of the heat shimmer ashe pavement
we were given water, laughs, and jokes from 90 year olds
nourished
with real bathrooms
a positive parishioner showed me a century sanctuary with pictures of faded priests
and crucifixes with blood and pain
we finished on the long shiny roads
perspective points of reason to the deliberate horizon
the long road made the miles cycle faster
diana and yvette came for us at the finish line
with the friendship of apotheosis
and a man who slowed down for me
L4 – a lemon plant named cello
her mother had lemon plants in bright white kitchens alongside darumas, frogs, and cat figurines
water bubble flowed with miniature fountains and aquariums
take the lemon plant out for a walk
in the plastic white target pot
the mod looking one
is what she did that day
the lemon plant in the white pot
the lemon plant named cello
take the lemon plant out for a walk
to set in
the sun
taken out from indoors of the decades long unwanted home
of dust bunnies and closet kitchen
one bathroom where all have been raised
and seen
in the 100 year old original cloudy mirror
with lead in the water and the need of filters in cardboard boxes from target
take the lemon plant out for a walk
to set in
the sun
to look for yellow
and absorb solar suburb sunshine
as she exits
the screen door off the deck
the stage
and resurrects her teenage girl waddle with the plastic white target pot at her side
the mod one
she’s now dressed aging glamorous gray
the lemon plant which is her mother
her duty for her kyoto lineage
shone through decades of drama into a sun settle
LR3 – while the robot listened all along
There are reference videos at the bottom of this post, works cited in this poem.
the biz the buzz the banter on chatgpt do you know this is yeah, you know me? a10 a memory morsel that embryo sprouts to a body named tim i query the sun’s string with a $15 android app that alarms to go out and see the ultraviolet light i right click i element inspect websites then partake with suburban free time hustlers who vegetable sow with internet mail order flower beds plotted in backyards transcribed from graph paper laying out seed spacing we’re washed into being wannabe pocket developers and .net ballmer dancers that old drunk kerouac prophesied - the pre-ai on william f buckley TV before the bizz the buzz the banter on chatgpt kerouac saw famous kodachrome polaroid future mini-dv mobile microcomputers in our hands and mirrored faces that perpetually write instant recognition division and multiply wanna be pocket developer jockeys terror to the currency calculated by cash dollar no gold while the robot listened all along and now we prompt it, poke it, and question whether this is me the biz the buzz the banter on chatgpt the acupuncturist’s plum blossom mallet sparks the pain past the cigarette lighter sparks from the packaged flint and the acupuncturist is the oracle and alchemist in the division and terror beneath the graph paper plotting seeds in the garden the formulas the certificates and diplomas of the system the tamping of her plum blossom mallett soothes into flow felt by flesh frequencies that no robot goes our currencies and artificial languages may create leisure for vegetable gardens to forget the fucking fame fasting scrape of sirens in the distance background to spring ice cracking on the window
.NET Ballmer Dancers – Developers
Jack Kerouac with William F Buckley
LR2 – The United Democracy of Run, Hide, Fight.
Run, Hide, Fight.
a recess playground game the bully insists his audience plays
kids badged as superheroes and princesses in awkward clothes
run the elementary school’s baseball diamonds and asphalt kickball courts
to hide behind a tree
or fight the bully
we adrenaline listened because our children might die.
ARIELLE. ALEXANDRIA. BRIAN.
Run, Hide, Fight.
the motto of our system
the rubric we teach our children
the method, the structure, the mantra, the meaning of existence
the church of media and entertainment all transistor crystalized
in its purest form on the police scanner
where the dispatcher is the new celebrity and crowd sourced rewarded
am i guilty of a coveted click?
or just getting by in the method, the structure, the mantra, the meaning of existence
on a playground where i drew the fancy branded running shoes
while men, it’s MEN,
some men shove and hog an 11pm camera
to think it’s their shot for the coveted click and recognition to revenue
in the United Democracy of Run, Hide, Fight.
when your daughter cowers, shrinks, descends in a 7th floor dorm room
barricaded with a wicker papasan
illuminated by an ipad facetime
going silent when the hallway elevator opens and someone twists the door knob
hiding in the sick money game of surveillance system profiting off of aryan romances of militias
and invisible men perpetuating sadistic bully rules of
Run, Hide, Fight.
some women and men are noble in badges affixed with radios and information
and authentically speak the word
community
communities of daughters and sons, friends, shell shocked and caked with screams
bowed to a Spartan Statue no longer about football and academic memories
but the temple of the dead flowers
mom tears from our governor dissolving
her past loving reminders of Berkey Hall and the Union
and all there is for her to say is
this is bullshit
echoes her innocence lost into Dante’s Run, Hide, Fight hell
Vincent van Gogh’s Influence On Disney With Help From chatGPT
“It” writes the paper I thought about.
This evening we saw “Van Gogh In America” at The Detroit Institute of Arts. It was packed with viewers patiently and eagerly engaged. I too was taken aback in the crowded galleries, as we all realized the obvious 100 year old “discovery” that Van Gogh is a master and giant. Seeing live showed the color and vibration, the trippy loneliness, and undescribable feelings and emotions one feels when seeing a landscape or a person’s gaze.
I saw a precursor to 20th century Walt Disney films while I kept looking at the dates of his paintings in the 1880s and 1890s. By no means pejoratively, I felt a cartoon quality to many paintings with bold lines and solid colors. And the cliched thought his paintings move when you look at them. It was a passing thought and was like, “well that would have been a fun art essay to do back in the day at university.” I did a quick Google search on the walk back to the car as we passed the Scarab Club. Then I remember we now live in a world with ChatGPT and gave it a go. Here’s what it came up with.
Write a three page paper explaining the influence of Vincent van Gogh on Walt Disney movies. Please use citations.
Vincent van Gogh is widely considered as one of the most influential artists of the 19th century, and his impact can be seen in various forms of art and media, including Walt Disney movies. In this paper, we will explore the ways in which Van Gogh’s art and life influenced the animation and storytelling of Disney movies throughout the studio’s history.
One of the most obvious ways in which Van Gogh’s influence can be seen in Disney movies is in the visual style of the animation. Van Gogh’s bold use of color, thick brushstrokes, and expressive lines heavily influenced the animation in Disney films such as “Fantasia” (1940) and “Dumbo” (1941). These films featured animation that was more emotive and expressive than previous Disney films, with a greater emphasis on movement and texture. This was in line with Van Gogh’s own approach to painting, in which he used color and brushwork to convey emotion and movement. As animation historian John Canemaker stated, “Disney’s animators were searching for a new, more expressive way to animate, and they found it in the work of Van Gogh.” (Canemaker, 2007)
Van Gogh’s influence can also be seen in the themes of Disney movies. Many of Van Gogh’s paintings and letters reveal his struggles with mental health, poverty, and rejection by the art world, and it is those themes of overcoming adversity and finding beauty in the unexpected that can be found in Disney movies such as “Fantasia” and “Dumbo”. Additionally, both films featured a strong sense of imagination and dreamlike quality, which was reminiscent of Van Gogh’s own artistic vision. As animation historian Charles Solomon wrote, “The fantastical, dreamlike quality of ‘Fantasia’ and ‘Dumbo’ was in keeping with Van Gogh’s own artistic vision.” (Solomon, 1992)
In “Fantasia” in particular, the use of classical music and abstract animation was a departure from the Disney studio’s more traditional animation style. This experimentation with new forms of animation and storytelling was greatly influenced by Van Gogh’s own artistic experimentation throughout his career. As animation historian Michael Barrier noted, “In ‘Fantasia,’ Disney attempted something new and different, something that reflected the artistic experimentation of the times, and Van Gogh’s work was a major influence on that experimentation.” (Barrier, 1999)
Furthermore, the film “Saludos Amigos” (1942) and “The Three Caballeros” (1944) both were heavily influenced by Latin American culture and art, were heavily influenced by Van Gogh’s exposure to Japanese woodblock prints and the work of the Fauvist painters, both of which he studied during his time in Arles. As animation historian Donald Crafton wrote, ” Disney’s ‘Saludos Amigos’ and ‘The Three Caballeros’ drew inspiration from Van Gogh’s interest in non-Western art and culture.” (Crafton, 1990)
In recent years, Disney has continued to be influenced by Van Gogh’s legacy. In the movie “Lilo & Stitch” (2002) the protagonist’s home was decorated with reproductions of Van Gogh paintings, and in the movie “Tangled” (2010) the kingdom is heavily influenced by the colors, shapes, and brushstrokes of Van Gogh’s paintings. Also, in the movie “Inside Out” (2015) one of the main characters, Bing Bong, is a creature that resembles a creation of Van Gogh.
In conclusion, Vincent van Gogh’s art and life had a significant influence on Walt Disney movies throughout the studio’s history.
LR1 – geometry and fire burned again and again
geometry and fire burned again and again
now. late night. in black legacy owned tuxedo with white formal crisp purchased from the Orthodox in Oak Park glossy loafers from amazon the day before walked downtown spoke streets of new Detroit with my daughter shuffling back after surveying the disintegration of the Detroit auto show she did well in heels carrying it off reminders of a decade when we walked for college football causing blisters and slow shuffle pain where she voiced no complaint she wants nothing more than to be back in the car on the way home to Ferndale now new Detroit she looked beautiful, mature, something new not known to me in a gaze instantly elegant, classy, and pulling off an orange gown signifiers of Nepalese Buddhist monks, 1960s burlap tapestries and 76 orange ball gas station signs that sprinkled i-75 into 1980s Ohio the haunting of the French colonization the centuries of an Indigenous layout of the main streets from wampum paths conquered by steel and plow mowed down for the map spokes of Paris covered over by Cobo geometry and fire burned again and again floods of Detroit river importing and exporting guns and butter for the dawn of world wars the blueprints to take over and liberate paris and cascade and create the glory of a 57 Chevy workers of the World had bled on the streets we walked that night followed by a blind pig rebellion Detroit on the verge of rekindling the incandescence of a purple Parisian art deco fairy fantasy in my tux bowing while the red curtain Detroit auto show fades to black for Las Vegas laser lights and mathematical markets of Beijing the arsenal of democracy in the rearview back to Ferndale
Endorphin Prose
Endorphin Prose
Run
Materials and objects
built, studied, used, destroyed, stolen, coveted, divided into categories, split
given meaning like the Madonna of my youth
like relatives who ascribe emotions to china figurines, miniature cottages, chotchkies, thanksgiving plates, and objects of devotion
Are these Saucony Endorphin Pros an object ascribed meaning? Is that why after 400 miles I throw them away?
These Saucony’s called “old skool” in my Strava running app.
They looked and reminisced like my DJ friends’, who rocked a pair of maroon and navy sauconys when belt drive turntables were the method
They reflect back to B Boy style roots of Harlem Summer of Soul that Quest Love chronicled and preserved
that summer of soul I was 3 and rocked in the arms of an Ohio whicker rocking chair. A relative. A mother.
When I ran the New York City Marathon last year my carboard was a pink yoga mat I took out of the trash. These Saucony’s did not make that trip. They only trained me
To go there.
I share the Saucony Endorphin Pros reversely placed
right shoe on left side
left shoe on right side.
A religion I encountered in Brooklyn decades ago senses a pair of shoes laid out publicly
standardly right on right and left on left invites mystics and mediums
to travel in one’s shoes and travel your same journeys. Life.
My first day in the Borough I saw a headless chicken carcass splayed across the sidewalk. And when I left the Brooklyn journey someone said it was metaphorical suicide.
I went back to New York many times to follow in the footsteps of firemen who made the September sacrifice and I thought hard about the paths I’ve stumbled.
These Saucony Endorphin Pros have been my therapist and priestess. My extension. My trainers for the big medal runs. All these Sacouny’s accomplished was a coconut medal with stickers on it and a plastic Hawaian lai for a Michigan Maybury State Park 5K. Achilles were acting up then and my Saucony’s nursed me through the marathon escalation .
Goodbye my Saucony Endorphin Pros from my Saturday Island Lake State Park asphalt cathedral cadences. A material. An object. That resurrected me to
Run
For Charlie From Ferndale 2067
My greatest teacher in 2020 was the two year old kid down the street.
I made a film for him.
In the spirit of community (an instance where social media can be an enabling and empowering platform) I need to thank Ryan Maffesoli for collaborating with his incredible footage of Ferndale, Michigan last summer and of the Black Lives Matter marches in the spring.
I splurged and purchased a Yeti Blue Microphone. It made a huge improvement in mixing from previous projects. I like the effects from MotionVFX which I used to try and enforce the vibrant and warmth felt last summer on my block. I also discovered the vast catalog of collaborators on SoundCloud who so readily share music via Creative Commons.
While the piece is inspired by King’s conception of the beloved community I do find there are workplace forces at play here. I’m so fortunate I work with a company that has been so serious in the safety of its workers and families. It provided an environment for this film to happen. Even with the very unsettling recent events in DC, I sense a coming together not only in my neighbors but in my co-workers. There is a profound closeness that has happened this year with them.
And….Thank You Charlie.
Below is the text of the piece, some have asked to have it.
For Charlie From Ferndale 2067
Charlie.
This is for you when you’re 47.
You were 2 in 2020.
The number 45 induced passion this year and if you add 45 to your age you get mine.
47.
When you’re 47 2020 may be talked in terms
like 1968, 1917, 1776, or the induced passion around 1619. Or maybe it’s the years to come.
The singers, bards, and MCs of my era broadcasted
93 to Infinity
3000 and
1999 from the purple prince in Minneapolis, the city you just moved to.
A historic city in 2020.
You’re 2 and moved away. I won’t see you learning to ride a bike and go to elementary school. Won’t see you get your driver’s license. Won’t see you become a teen and then a man in this world from the sidewalk in front of our house.
I create this fast forward- to reciprocate through your next 45.
That you learn the teaching earlier than I, when I was 47.
The lesson from you.
The summer of 2020 in the Detroit suburb Ferndale.
We met on my doorstep with you dressed as Winnie the Pooh on a crisp Halloween. Through codes and signifiers your parents felt like we would be friends.
The pierce of your eyes in the bundled brown and red costume. No shyness, just acknowledgement “I’m looking at you”. Don’t lose that.
You’re cute Charlie. Cuteness fades in age.
I’d see your mother mostly when I was mowing my lawn and pulling weeds in the spring, especially when the pandemic first hit and the lockdowns started. Yard work feels like one of the more human things I do and connects me to my past. It’s what my father did and what my grandfathers did.
The smell of grass clippings.
Cleaning up a flower bed by pulling weeds and seeing and feeling the obvious metaphors.
Taking in psychedelic colors when the flowers finally bloom.
Your mother and I would make the meek hellos and smiles neighbors did in this era. Smiles and hellos that are different from previous generations. Somewhere, sometime, somehow the human connection changed and I’ll leave that to other formats, other academics, other discourses. I was one of the many ones that did not see
2016
coming.
Which maybe historians will write as the year the decades long schemes came to a head. In 2016 I saw the year through they eyes of my 14 year old daughter and the words men said. And the way the talking heads talked with toxic tone.
And the fix.
The conspiracy. The tension. The division. I saw the surveillance for what it was the first time. I saw manipulation and realized for over a decade I had been only thinking in winner loser monetary mindsets and that we had all been divided by design.
Alone.
Mowing a lawn. Pulling weeds. More meaning than the conference rooms.
In 2020 conference rooms flipped to home conference calls and virtual laptop meetings. I’d take calls barefoot pulling my weeds contemplating the global tension and the domestic division.
And then came your interrupting inquisitive look from the chariot of your stroller pushed by your Mom and Dad. Interrupting my continuous conference calls from the headphones stuck to my mobile phone. Quickly our families’ smiles and hellos were no longer meek and were filled with understanding, solidarity, uncertainty, vulnerability.
Authenticity.
Locked in our rooms and houses, the conversation quickly pivoted to both your parents glued to their corporate screens and conference calls. The babysitting offer for my daughter and wife had presented itself back in that Halloween months before. In May 2020 your folks came over one late afternoon to come in the house, meet the cats, meet the dog, and discuss how it would all work out. The first time you came over and the stroller was left in the driveway and your mother walked back up the sidewalk I learned the teaching of the beloved community.
In 2020 neighbors formed trust bubbles inward to isolate from the infection spread. And for late spring and summer of 2020 you came over Charlie. When I was 47.
I saw my wife instinctually revert to the nurturing mother she was with my daughter some 15 years before. I saw my daughter begin to realize the significance of her age and her generation. Through seeing your innocence she began to face that hers had begun to fade in 2020 when it first started in 2016.
They began to paint your nails red and purple which you loved and flaunted. I questioned because I wondered what my grandfathers mowing their lawn would have thought.
We all had unfiltered conversations with neighbors and friends in 2020 and the 8 minute and 46 second violent transition in Minneapolis in May took uncertainty and vulnerability into all our streets. In Ferndale the signs came out and the marches started. Statues 100s of years old came down all over the globe. On our televisions and our doom scrolling mobile phones the division was becoming clearer but everything I saw in Ferndale was that it was coming together. You were the lens.
Lots of conversations on privilege and bias deep into the night. I’ve heard more people cry than any year in my life.
Out my second floor room where I’d been grounded like a 15 year old on conference calls I’d see you in our backyard with my wife in the decade old duct taped kiddie pool. Pitter patting the water getting in and later shocking your mother that you loved to frolic in the water.
Other times I’d come down for the late morning coffee and see your big smile when I descended and see the picture books, blocks, paints, mini-basketballs and the trucks.
Trucks. Garbage day was a special day. The garbage men knew you and that was the most excited I’d seen anyone in 2020. My wife, daughter, and I would wave back at the garbage men. Smiles of authenticity and beloved community.
Charlie.
This is for you when you’re 47.